Thursday, July 28, 2005

Ultrasound this morning

Well, we went in for a second ultrasound this morning. I wanted to be absolutely sure, you know? Teresa the technician said there wasn't any change. Still no heartbeat, still only developed only to 7 weeks. :(
So that is that. Monday I have a D&C scheduled at 11 a.m. If I miscarry before then, that's fine. The midwife said some women's bodies just don't let go. So I will keep you posted.
Tina & Kamali have been wonderful - Tina's done my laundry & the dishes! (Kamali helped too) And they've let me come over and crash at their house. The kids like that because they can play outside. Although they know about the baby dying, I don't really want them to focus on it. It is nice to go to Tina & Kamali's because they have cable, so I can zone. I'm still trying to wrap my head around all this.
Gonna go hang out with the kids now. Jef took today off from work again. Thank God we have the extra money & he keeps getting computer jobs to cover days like today.
God is good. He is comforting us and we know He's in charge. :)
Thanks for the prayers. Please don't stop.

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Bad news

We have bad news. I went on Wednesday for my usual pregnancy PAP smear. The midwife couldn't find the baby's heartbeat, so she had me go in for an ultrasound (right then) to "put our minds at ease". The ultrasound showed the baby hadn't developed past 7 weeks (he should have been 11) and the technician could not detect a heartbeat.
Tomorrow I go in for another ultrasound just to be totally sure.
Monday, unless I miscarry naturally, I will go in for a D&C.
Thanks for all the prayers. Please keep them up. We are very sad.